It’s
Sunday! And I really, really bored. Why? I can’t go anywhere. I really, really
wanna go with my family, but, well, there’s always something bothering
everything. Wait—why in the world I use English in my blog? I think English isn’t
that cool anymore. Basi. Let me tell you, pal. What’s cool right now is
bahasa-bahasa intelek seperti konspirasi kemakmuran, statusiasi, dan kudeta
kepentingan. You know, almost whenever I turn my television on, isinya
kata-kata itu lagi, kata-kata itu lagi :’)
Okesip.
Skip that moron.
I don’t wanna
trashin’ my blog with that unimportant thing, even though this blog isn’t too
important to read juga sih, haha.
Tau gak,
kalo gue ngeblog, gue ngerasa ada orang yang ngebaca blog gue. Gue juga nulis
seolah-olah lagi ngomong sama temen. Padahal, mana mungkin ada yang baca blog
yang sudah lapuk dan tak terurus ini :’) Apalagi sebenernya blog ini gue tulis
buat konsumsi pribadi, bukan buat bahan bacaan masyarakat. Kenapa? Lo liat
sendiri aja: isinya curhatan semua, terus isinya juga absurd. Gue malu, gue
nggak bisa mengeluarkan kata-kata intelek such as twenty-nine my age dan labil
ekonomi di blog gue :| Makanya, gue memutuskan untuk mengubah nama blog secara periodik.
Supaya blog ini tidak ada yang menemukan. Bhuahaha. *ketawa jahat*
Tapi
tenang, gue akan tetap ngeblog seolah-olah gue lagi cerita sama orang. Kenapa? Gue
udah memutuskan, gue akan nulis apa aja di blog ini, mau gue lagi kesel, lagi frustasi,
gue tulis semua di sini. Kesian banget kan hidup gue, curhat sama tuts-tuts keyboard
berdebu dan laptop berukuran tidak terlalu besar dan tidak terlalu kecil dengan
intel atom core i3 dan system operasi windows 7 bajakan. *merasa autis*
Gue janji,
gue akan terus ngeblog. Gue merasa terinspirasi oleh salah seorang blogger
(lagi) yang tulisannya bisa dijadiin buku. Jadi ceritanya, last…. Thursday (or
Friday?) I went to the bookstore, alone. Yeah, alone. Well, it doesn’t matter.
Setiap orang pasti pernah punya that catharsis time--ketika ia merasa ingin
sendirian, kan? Dan dalam perjalanan seorang diri itu, gue nemu suatu buku tentang high school for dummy gitu dan
bukunya asik. Meskipun gue bukan anak SMA lagi, buku ini bener-bener bring back
memories banget dan bikin gue kangen sama masa-masa SMA gue :”( Dan pas gue
liat biodata, jreng-jreng, sang penulis tanggal lahirnya sama kayak gue! And
when my kepo alert has just turned on, I stalked his twitter and I found out
that he is still in high school! Hal itu bener-bener membuat gue semangat (dan
agak sedih). Dia aja bisa ngeluarin buku tunggal sendiri, kenapa gue nggak
bisa?!
Well, I
must admit that some guys really can make me envy. But sometimes I really,
really envy if that guy was born in the same date as me, younger than me, and
he just like—can achieve his goal easily, while, here I am sitting and got
nothing. Sometimes, I really think that I would be happier if I were born as
other person who smarter, richer, more prominent and more talented than me. But
when I think about it once again, If I were born as not Riyan, I would have my
life extremely turn upside down. I would
may be lose my family, and some of my friends. Even, maybe I would never know
and met them. That things, really scared me. So I decided I woud rather not to
be another Riyan, than lose all the people I love and my memories with them.
Well yeah,
as I wrote on my bio on twitter. I’m still young, and I need to explore the
world. Suatu hari nanti, gue juga akan punya buku tunggal sendiri. Buku dengan
nama gue, atau nama pena gue, MR
Andrianus, terpampang di cover depan buku itu dengan font seperti ini. Dan buku gue itu
terpampang di toko-toko buku di seluruh Indonesia. Tapi gue gak mau bikin yang
ecek-ecek. Dan kamu, ya kamu, bersama laptop ASUS A44H beserta tuts-tuts keyboard yang berdebu, akan
menjadi saksinya. Ingat itu. Aamiin.
